surrender my softness

A mail art collaboration in conversation with
Noor Hindi’s poem “Ode to Friendship.”

Ode to Friendship

            Edgewater Beach, 2019


The night so warm I could fall in love
with anything
including myself. My loves. You are the only people
I’d surrender my softness to.
The moon so blue. And yes, what’s gold
is gold. What’s real
is us despite
a country so grieved, so woke, so death.
Our gloom as loud as shells.

Listen. Even the ocean begs.
Put your hands in the sand, my friend.
It’s best we bury ourselves.
What’s heavy.               What’s heavy?
Becomes light.

Noor Hindi (she/her/hers) is a Palestinian-American poet. Her poems have appeared or are forthcoming in The Rumpus, Winter Tangerine, and Cosmonauts Avenue. Her essays have appeared or are forthcoming in American Poetry Review, Literary Hub, and Adroit Journal. Hindi is the Senior Reporter for The Devil Strip Magazine. Visit her website at noorhindi.com.

poem

From left to right. 1. Woven paper mail art by Gwendolyn Tatreaux to A CLEARING from our open call. 2. Mail art by Stacey Tran to Alana Dao with cut up text and collage elements. 3. Collaged mail art on teal and yellow index cards by Alana Dao in reply to open call collaborator Samaa Abdurraqib.

art

Where do we turn when we are grief-laden, when our structures have failed and we must create our own systems of support? How can we learn to value and nourish intimacy—within ourselves, with each other, within larger community? How can our creative practice attune our senses to these meaningful connections?

We started this cycle with these questions in mind, and the desire to exchange mail art over the course of a year with six artists and writers whom we admire. What we sent and received unfurled slowly through the seasons with tenderness and surprise. 

Answers arrived in our mailboxes, yes, and also through voice notes and songs, in books, on drives, in unexpected places. At Bearnstow in mid-August on Parker Pond. A week artists retreat of letter-writing, reading, shared meals, shared space, shared softness. Of friendships, forged and witnessed. Zine making, dream making. Peach / yellow / red / sky. A hearth on cold nights. Movement in the mornings with generous dancers, the generous guidance of Jasmine Hearn

Side to side, back to front; we are at a crossroads.

Your center is a bowl of stars.

Be with the sound, the memory of the sound.

The ground and wind against your skin. 

Be with time.

Be with time different.

“My loves. You are the only people / I’d surrender my softness to,” writes Noor Hindi. And we surrendered our softness, ourselves. In this spirit, we surrendered hierarchical pretense. Mail art and the epistolary form opened a door to experimentation and play. We made art for each other, freely, nourishing an ecosystem of creating and receiving. 

Later this year we will be sharing our book, Surrender My Softness, with you. In sharing the intimacy of our correspondence, we will share personal experiences within the collective, as a collective. Art becomes an act of generosity between one another, a praxis of prolonged presence with poetry, process, and people.  

artists

  • JANAN ALEXANDRA [@laptitevaliserouge] is a Lebanese American poet currently based in Cyprus. As a queer writer of the Arab diaspora, much of her work explores the indeterminacies of language, identity, and belonging. Her work has received support from the Fulbright Program, the Martha’s Vineyard Institute for Creative Writing, the Provincetown Fine Arts Work Center, and the Bucknell Seminar for Younger Poets. In addition to writing, janan teaches, edits, and plays the fiddle in an old-time duo called Sweet May Dews. She has roots scattered in many places—Maine beloved among them. You can read some of janan’s recent work in Beloit Poetry Journal, Gulf Coast, Ploughshares, The Rumpus, Mizna, and elsewhere online and in print.

  • SERENA HIMMELFARB (they/ them) [@serenahimmelfarb] studied film and visual art at Hampshire College, and received their MFA at California Institute for the Arts. From 2019-2022, they were a Five College Assistant Visiting Professor of Art based at Hampshire College, where they taught Installation and Experimental Form, Painting, Drawing, Art & Politics, and a collaborative, interdisciplinary seminar, The Sound of Life.

  • Working with clay, construction materials and photography, IRINA SKORNYAKOVA [@ias.studio] is creating a space of androgynous time, from a past buried by layers of earthen strata or perhaps from a dystopian future. Born in Moscow and raised in the US, Skornyakova currently lives and works in Los Angeles, CA. Irina’s work is informed by her frequent moves as a child and navigating the dualities of being a first generation immigrant, stuck in the gray zone between two different cultures and histories.

  • (they/she) [@lunch_poems] is a queer Vietnamese American community organizer, author of Soap for the Dogs (Gramma, 2018), and creator of Tender Table, a project celebrating Black and Brown community by connecting and honoring our identities, traditions, joy, resilience, and fight for collective liberation through storytelling and food.

  • ARISA WHITE [@arisaawhite] is an assistant professor of English and Creative Writing at Colby College. She is the author of Who’s Your Daddy, co-editor of Home Is Where You Queer Your Heart, and co-author of Biddy Mason Speaks Up, the second book in the Fighting for Justice Series for young readers. As the creator of the Beautiful Things Project, Arisa curates poetic collaborations that center queer BIPOC narratives. She is a Cave Canem fellow and serves on the board of directors for Foglifter and Nomadic Press. To learn more about her other publications and projects, visit arisawhite.com.

  • GOLALEH YAZDANI [@golalehyazdani] is an interdisciplinary artist and educator based in Portland, Maine. Yazdani received her Master of Fine Arts at Maine College of Art. She holds a Bachelor of Fine Arts from the University of Art in Tehran, Iran. Throughout her practice, Yazdani has exhibited in Tehran, Iran, and the United States of America in venues such as Boston University Art Galleries, SPACE, Able Baker Contemporary, among others. Mixed media is Yazdani’s language. She incorporates video, sculpture, stop motion animation, and performance in her work. Growing up in a conservative society with a dictatorial climate is a major influence on Yazdani’s studio practice. Yazdani talks about the suppression forced upon her family, friends, and classmates. She explores the traces of trauma and grief as the natural consequence of a broken community under such political and cultural conditions. Currently, Yazdani is a resident fellow at the Lunder Institute in Waterville, Maine.

readings

No one creates in a vacuum. This space is dedicated to sharing pieces that are shaping our practices and deepening our understanding of each cycle’s theme.

“Identity Politic Confessional: How we read (or don’t read) work by marginalized identities” by Noor Hindi

Thinking about collective resistance; (mis)reading / (un)reading; crying while reading as release, as recognition, as processing grief; the (im)precision of language, of translation; how we grant ourselves permission to write, visibly; visibility; the beauty of being in conversation with living poets; the importance of persistent questioning; “It’s all political”; the distance between our lived realities; acts of joy and survival “rooted in deep seeing”; the grass and the grass’ meaning, growing

“Catalog of Unabashed Gratitude” by Ross Gay featuring Bon Iver

Thinking about thank you, thank you, as chorus, thank you; gratitude as an elixir for loneliness; tender devotional lists; reading aloud to one another, holding each other through it; adding music to the scene; driving off into a sunrise and smiling; soundscapes; birds in the springtime / the act of close listening for birds in the springtime; slow drip of honey, curve of a goose’s neck – all smooth and sweet; allowing emotions to water through us, weeping – take from this cup and drink

“The Lion Speaks: On the Potency of the Epistolary Form” by Daniel Black

Thinking about the song and rhythm of conversation; the musicality of language; the freedom of the epistolary form; to speak unabashedly, to write without pretense; the letter: container for memory, breathing time capsule, envelope of living voice; the legitimizing of our own stories against the grain of the victor, the will of the hunter; a private glimpsing of the naked heart

“Vulnerability Study” by Solmaz Sharif

Thinking about the shyness of strawberry blossoms before the fruit; breadth within brevity; the intimacy of observation; the quiet of our mirrored humanness; the key of our senses; a tension that holds form; the scrutiny / to live under the scrutiny; a violent undertow; our histories, breathing through the walls

“Transformation” by Adam Zagajewski

Thinking about the pause / what happens within the pause; our untold longings; rest as resistance, rest to recuperate, rest to refocus; quiet moments of observation; the sun, the heat of the sun; how the sky changes; what happens when we pay attention; a languageless poem, alive in the world

“Sometimes I can’t feel it, what some call beauty” by Diane Seuss

Thinking about writing as a form of appreciation, how we appreciate the world; a numbness, an oversaturation; histories in the landscape; storied pieces; stories unspoken; the sea and all it contains; the water, containing memory; what we name but cannot feel; what we feel but cannot name; poem obsessions; movement; a cold chill on a fleshy cheek; feeling as flesh or feeling as fleeting; what stirs within us, what stirs around us, what stirs within me

The Voice Notes We Shared” — the season finale of Still Processing

Thinking about the fluidity of friendship; water as mystery, water as body, water a solace; voice across distance; “the texture of loneliness”; the ways in which we forget, the paths to remember; care-full catalogs of communication; to be in relationship with people, with place; a tending to, a watering, what it means to water.

“in lieu of a poem, i'd like to say by” Danez Smith

Thinking about slow texts as letters; group texts as connection; odes to friendship; showering small details with attention; collective lists; watching ourselves bloom and wrinkle together just to cheer each other on; nourishment versus satiability; to bite into something, to allow the juice to run down our arms; the sweet-sour honesty of love; turning the ripeness, softly, over and over again, in our hands—palming the delicacy of us

Collective Nouns for Humans in the Wild” by Kathy Fish

Thinking about naming, naming as a means to know; how unexpected language shifts our understandings; a sea buoy; slow processing; what keeps us afloat—and how; innocence in joy, joy despite the threat; the blessings of connections, the forms connections take; a spark, illuminating an agency within us, what lights up around us; an exhilaration; what exhilarates you?

“Spell for Grief and Letting Go” by adrienne maree brown

Thinking about divination, oracles, asking; asking our surroundings; looking up, looking around; feeling the air; allowing the pause; allowing the silence; allowing the water to hold, to carry; feeling though movement; talking through discomforts; activating sound; releasing stagnation; starting anew; honoring the past; expanding beyond; learning new laughters; learning lived stories of new friends; dance; what the body holds; moving the body to move what the body holds; poems; embracing the nonlinear; offerings to the earth

“Tigers” by Eliza Griswold, shared in Shira Erlichman’s newsletter

Thinking about ferocity; desire, and the fear of desire; longing and letting go; what happens when we hold on too tight; letters as a list of our loves; what we are able to offer each other wholeheartedly, what we aren’t; the ways we seek wholeness; seasons; landscape; liminal space; sky tigers / earth tigers, wondering: when we let go, which tiger possesses the strongest pull?

“The Gift” by Forugh Farrokhzad

Thinking about night; light; revolution; the darkness rearranged; the unknown, unknowing; transformation; rebirth; separation/togetherness; our becoming, together; a window of hope, climbing through a window of hope holding your hand; uncertainty; the void; odes to friendship; our kindreds as lamps that light our alleys; hair blowing in the wind

"It’s the Season I Often Mistake" by Ada Limón

Thinking about disorientation; a melding, a melting; the tremble of reciprocity and return; movement into being, gentle and slow; discomfort; solace in small moments; unspooling, a spilling of spells; a golden flutter; the whisper of wind that harkens change

“pillow talk” by Audrey Gidman

Thinking about attention begetting beauty; ephemerality; soft spaces; how language builds; what and how we share, and with whom; to ebb and flow / to hold and release; a letting go; a lightness; a levity of feathers

Tomorrow, and Tomorrow, and Tomorrow by Gabrielle Zevin

Thinking about the intimacy of play; play as prophetic; intimacy of friendship; collaboration or friendship over romantic love → tripping up the status quo; intimacies outside of romantic relationship; types of love; devotion; skirts with pockets filled with notes only shared with friends; how we are tricked into romance but the actual romance of community; how to exist and multiply within it

“Creatures Abandoned by Time” by Jackie Wang

Thinking about dream poetics; the power of dreams; where we pour / pay attention; how we pray / show devotion; realities, coming into ourselves; layers, layering; plan(e)s of consciousness; attachment; seeds and their relation to ground; where are we?; who are we?; how memory flows and follows; what more, what more can we imagine?

from “Like Nebraska” by Sophie Klahr

Thinking about stillness; quiet; how we are shaped by stillness, quiet; color; change, or the desire to remain unchanged; change dipping into us no matter what; what we chose to fix and how; what we find in the salvage; what we offer to the darkness; the body made tell-tale; the brutal made tender; the evidence of histories; our landscapes; the scent of smoke and still, how it touches, even now

“From Blossoms” by Li-Young Lee

Thinking about fruition; the delicacy & resiliency of flowers; how we connect & are connected; what the sticky nectar catches; all that we contain; what we cried to this time last spring; welcoming joys; inviting pleasure; sweet moments of realization; holding truths—multiple truths—and turning them in our impermanent hands

“Ode to My Homegirls” by Safia Elhillo

Thinking about closeness; to be let in, to allow each other in, to soften; the landscapes of sense memory; the languages of friendship; joy, tears, what bubbles up in each other’s presence; how we measure distance, intimacy; the details of our memories; what happens when we remember together; the ways we practice being a harbor, holding each other, safe; the safety of us 

“Hope is a thing with feathers (254) by Emily Dickinson

Thinking about the miniscule, the crumbs, “Joy is not made to be a crumb.”; persistence; solitude; “The Gorgeous Nothings”; lineage of poetry, lineage of women, lineage of hope; letters / envelope letters; the language of birdsong, the language of lilacs; to live outside of language; the space of the unspoken; tender as flight, ever-moving light 

“life is like an enormous pavlova” from Brandon Taylor’s newsletter, sweater weather

Thinking about the ritual of the newsletter; creative growth; the order of things; balance; imagined expectations; moments of reflection; taste and sensation; the textures of pavlova; sustenance; feeling on the tongue/writing at the tips; celebration in the face of fatalism; wonder in the face of the world

SEAMSIDE podcast episode STURDY TRADITIONS with Jess Bailey

Thinking about the ways we communicate through handwork—fabric and paper, quilting and letters; collective art-making; softness, sturdiness; the mediums of the archive; all the ways to tell the story; expression outside of the written form; finding a language that fits; asking what is the spiritual function?; making offerings to what we love; the gift economy; the beauty of self-publishing; a belonging to something bigger; “my quilts are a testament that I was here.”


Love Poem (feat. Chani Nicholas)” by Jose Olivarez

Thinking about types of love; looking up to look within; the new moon as a new start; where we attune to guidance; being together across distance / the tender proximity to our loves; the momentum to move forward; sadness tides AND our joy!; relationality, it’s all relational; “& what will love be then?”

Support for A POSSIBLE PRACTICE 2022 was provided by an artist residency at Bearnstow and
the Kindling Fund, a grant administered by SPACE as part of the Andy Warhol Foundation for the Visual Arts Regional Regranting Program.